"But he was pierced for our transgressions; he was crushed for our iniquities; upon him was the chastisement that brought us peace, and with his wounds we are healed [...] He was oppressed, and he was afflicted, yet he opened not his mouth; like a lamb that is led to the slaughter, and like a sheep that before its shearers is silent, so he opened not his mouth." - Isaiah 53: 5,7
This passage. Natulala kami pareho ni Ate Rhods.
Lord, I don't know if the time will come when I will be able to comprehend the tremendous love that You have for me. It amazes and terrifies me that a perfect God would sacrifice Himself on the cross for a broken person such as myself. It's such a crazy love, Lord, and I don't even know if I'll ever understand how You thought I was worth dying on the cross for. But You did. And there's nothing I can do to ever make myself deserving of Your love, it's not something that I can work for. You've done all the work. And all I want is to know You more, to bend my will to Yours. It suddenly gets harder to breathe when I realize how much You love me (and I know how that sounds like such a corny line from a movie), but I suppose that's how a person feels when they fall in love?
I cannot even fathom how You managed to show so much strength in Your silence while You were on that cross. I can't even imagine how much it must have pained the Father to see His Son dying on the cross, knowing He's not supposed to do anything about it for the sake of saving a people who don't even understand why there is a need for salvation. And the craziest thing is, I know You'll do it all over again if You were asked. There are so many things I want to ask You, and I don't even know why I'm having such a hard time accepting that You thought I deserve Your love. I wonder, if your answer to my question is it's because You love me, am I going to want more questions answered? Am I going to be satisfied with that? (Is it really hard for my mind to wrap around the fact that You love me?)
Hay Lord. Ang tagal na nating magkasama. But it's like I'm a new Christian that's just gotten to know You and what You've done. And it just took my breath away. There's a new found wonder for everything that You are. (And maybe, that's not such a bad thing?)
You leave me speechless.
You take my breath away.
